discord for the deliberation
15 July 2005 @ 6:12 pm
His eyes are strapped on upside down
His neuroses sounding like a slow rumble of dissolution
His eyes are strapped on upside down—
Chronologically defiant against every person in this room,
His antagonist is shifting slightly to the right
Slipping smoothly over the windowpane
Staggering as seductively as possible to the back seat of his car&
he's stammering
he's stammering:
he's stammering HEY BABY,
I don't know any of you anymore.
I don't know any of you anymore.
&I have my legs stretched out farther than necessary,
trying to look too inappropriate for this tiny kitchen
just to distract from the situation.
but in all sacrilegious subconsciousness,
my hands warm and shaking on my stomach prove:
I'm still the anxious girl he has always known.